i have trouble with spelling, and i haven't written anything for over 20 years. at least not until i started writing on here. yes this is a bad excuse, but i will use it.


i do not pretend to be able to spell. i am the first to admit it.

i will not be silenced because people want me to be.

i have clinical depression. no the meds don't work on me.

i also have a personality disorder it means i hate being told what to do even if i know i should do it.

but i can read goodly enough to get by. if there is a word i have problems with i can look it up to find out what it means.

i have failed at everything i try. except driving taxi. but at least i keep trying.

i live with my dad have done so for 4 years because he said he needed help. my two brothers either wouldn't or couldn't do it. it was my biggest mistake moving here because my father is/was abusive. i knew that before i moved here.

no i will not abandon him. no i will not make it to heaven. that idea ended 44 years and 7 months ago. the day i was born.

the reason is because i remember my first thought. "SO THIS IS LIFE!!!!!!!!" and that was the way the thought came out. i remember seeing the shadows of the doctors and nurses. because i remember this, i know that there was something before life. a conses(spch)(ie a spirit) but not life.


but i do my best to do the best i can with everything i do.


my mom told me the first time i tried to hold a girls hand i was two days old. it was the girl in the crib next to mine in the hospital. lol.


i know some of you will flame me for what i have written but i don't care. i am just tired of people i disagree with telling me that i am stupid because i don't agree with them.

like in the last blog, will not name the person, i disagreed with her on which was more important and because i disagreed with her she called me the two names that i used in the title.

there have been a few others on here who have done this too. again no names.


with the exception of gene i do not think i have called any one stupid or an idiot because they disagree with me. if i have i am sorry.

when i make a mistake and i am sure i have made one. i admit it.
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on Jan 05, 2008
sorry brad. but since i cannot make a response to attacks on me on the other thread. i will have to do it here.


my comment about you two being computer experts was made because of the stardock icon by her name.


as for her still having an advantage over others. when i have access to someone who is an expert or at least better than me at something and i have a problem i go and ask the expert for help.


as for libraries, most of the librarians that i have meet barely know how to turn on a computer. yes i am sure that in the bigger cities it may be a requirement. but in cities like salt lake it isn't.


i did not in anyway mean any disrespect to you or her.


if it was my company and it isn't. the only people with the company logo by their name would be employees and family members would be ambassadors. to stop this confusion. and yes it is your company and you can do what ever you want.

because if i want to ask a question about a game or something it is the people with the logo that i would ask
on Jan 05, 2008
Well Daniel the only thing you can do here is to learn from your mistakes and move on.

That's all we can do really. Life is all about what does and doesn't work.

Maybe instead of focusing on what is wrong and why things aren't working for you, you should instead focus on what is good and what IS working for ya and continue.

on Jan 05, 2008
you should instead focus on what is good and what IS working for ya and continue.




that is easy nothing.
on Jan 05, 2008
that is easy nothing.


Oh, come on. Don't be such a sad sack. At least you've got your life.

Your heart still pumps. Your lungs still respire. You've got a lot more than most people on this planet do.

Just remember what Monty Python taught you so well:



ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE!

Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps
Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing.

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin
Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.

So always look on the bright side of death
Just before you draw your terminal breath

Life's a piece of shit
When you look at it
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.
You'll see it's all a show
Keep 'em laughing as you go
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the right side of life...
(Come on guys, cheer up!)
Always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the bright side of life...
(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)
Always look on the bright side of life...
(I mean - what have you got to lose?)
(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing!)
Always look on the right side of life...

on Jan 06, 2008

my comment about you two being computer experts was made because of the stardock icon by her name.

One doesn't need access to a computer to find out about candidates. And if they can't be bothered to educate themselves about candidates then they shouldn't vote.  People, shockingly enough, have managed to learn about candidates in the "before time"* (* the time BEFORE there were personal computers).

i did not in anyway mean any disrespect to you or her.

You wrongly assumed that she was using being a home maker as being an "excuse" for not being a computer expert.  THAT is what she (and others) found obnoxious.  It was a reading comprehrension issue on your part.  You have this tendancy to make poor assumptions and then act on those assumptions without reflection.

if it was my company and it isn't. the only people with the company logo by their name would be employees and family members would be ambassadors. to stop this confusion. and yes it is your company and you can do what ever you want.

She is an employee too.  And not everyone at the company is a computer expert. Do you think every person who works at NASA is a rocket scientist? Is every single person who works at Ford at car expert?

on Jan 06, 2008
As a one-time English teacher I just wish you'ld start using the Capital I instead of i. It would improve your entire post immediately. There are times when you have something to say and some of us listen.Thanks, cool your temper and stay in there. There is such a thing as freedom of speech.
on Jan 06, 2008
daniel, you make insane assumptions, assumptions so far out there that rational people can't figure out how you made those leaps of logic, (assuming any logical thought goes into most of your responses at all.)




I don't think my assumptions are insane. I will say that my thought patterns are different than most people's.
on Jan 06, 2008
My tongue-in-cheek suggestion that Britney be killed had nothing whatsoever to do with the fact that she's pregnant. In fact, if you'd READ the article and the comments which followed, you'd have realized that I didn't even KNOW she was preggers again--if indeed she is.




I got that until you responded to the fact that her sister was pregnet as well and wanted her dead too.


by the way there is one lady in history which would also fit into your demand to be killed. can you tell me who she is. a hint she lived about 2000 years ago.
on Jan 06, 2008
She is an employee too. And not everyone at the company is a computer expert. Do you think every person who works at NASA is a rocket scientist? Is every single person who works at Ford at car expert?




no but I assume everyone with the title dr.(phd) is.


but I suppose there could be a few lawyers and or accountants running around.

on Jan 06, 2008
and because you're stupid and illiterate.

Did I mention full of self-pity, excuses, and blame?


I found that out over Veterans day. I'm not at all surprised you got BL'd.
on Jan 06, 2008
BL'd.


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on Jan 06, 2008
BL'd.


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hmmmmm that is a puzzler (specially considering you were whining bout being blacklisted).

you tell anyone bout receiving oral sex over veteran's day?   

on Jan 07, 2008
you tell anyone bout receiving oral sex over veteran's day?


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on Jan 07, 2008

 

but you seem to think yours are worse than anyone else's


who doesn't

I don't.  Hell, I know there are millions of people who are far worse off than I am, and I deal with all sorts of hell everyday (medically).  If I sat around feeling sorry for myself and using it as an excuse, I'd probably be 400 lbs and watching TV all day.  Instead, I pull my ass out of bed and go to work each day even if I feel like I got run over by a semi in my sleep.  Deal with it, dude.  It's life.  Life can suck.

as for libraries, most of the librarians that i have meet barely know how to turn on a computer. yes i am sure that in the bigger cities it may be a requirement. but in cities like salt lake it isn't.
 

I would have to say that where you live is an anomaly.  I have lived everywhere from metro areas to very small towns (like the one I currently live in) and all the actual librarians (not volunteers, but the librarians) where trained with computers and the particular systems that they use.

Heck, when I was in college (this was 15+ years ago), I worked as a student worker in the library.  Even I was trained on the computers, and that was before they were so very prevalent!

cornflakes.

lol.  I couldn't agree more.

 

on Jan 07, 2008
but in cities like salt lake it isn't.


Bullshit. I live in the Salt Lake area, and every librarian I've ever known knows enough to get you on the freaking internet.

cornflakes.


Basically.