i have trouble with spelling, and i haven't written anything for over 20 years. at least not until i started writing on here. yes this is a bad excuse, but i will use it.
i do not pretend to be able to spell. i am the first to admit it.
i will not be silenced because people want me to be.
i have clinical depression. no the meds don't work on me.
i also have a personality disorder it means i hate being told what to do even if i know i should do it.
but i can read goodly enough to get by. if there is a word i have problems with i can look it up to find out what it means.
i have failed at everything i try. except driving taxi. but at least i keep trying.
i live with my dad have done so for 4 years because he said he needed help. my two brothers either wouldn't or couldn't do it. it was my biggest mistake moving here because my father is/was abusive. i knew that before i moved here.
no i will not abandon him. no i will not make it to heaven. that idea ended 44 years and 7 months ago. the day i was born.
the reason is because i remember my first thought. "SO THIS IS LIFE!!!!!!!!" and that was the way the thought came out. i remember seeing the shadows of the doctors and nurses. because i remember this, i know that there was something before life. a conses(spch)(ie a spirit) but not life.
but i do my best to do the best i can with everything i do.
my mom told me the first time i tried to hold a girls hand i was two days old. it was the girl in the crib next to mine in the hospital. lol.
i know some of you will flame me for what i have written but i don't care. i am just tired of people i disagree with telling me that i am stupid because i don't agree with them.
like in the last blog, will not name the person, i disagreed with her on which was more important and because i disagreed with her she called me the two names that i used in the title.
there have been a few others on here who have done this too. again no names.
with the exception of gene i do not think i have called any one stupid or an idiot because they disagree with me. if i have i am sorry.
when i make a mistake and i am sure i have made one. i admit it.